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Column 715

Estelle

Intro by Ted Kooser
12.02.2018

Alas­ka Quar­ter­ly Review put out a spe­cial dou­ble issue late in 2017 to cel­e­brate its 35th year, a very long tenure for a lit­er­ary mag­a­zine. Among the many fine works I found there was this touch­ing por­trait of his moth­er by Michael Mark, who lives in California. 

Estelle

Even when they danced, Dad couldn't keep her
in his arms. She'd spin off, leave him to fade
 
back into the circle of others, clapping, hooting.
Days when the pond would freeze, mothers took
 
their children's hands and worried them around
in slow circles. Mom raced in uncharitable loops
 
past me and my brother like we weren't hers.
Same way she didn't see my report card Fs as Fs.
 
She'd take the matching color pen and glide
the ballpoint so it looked like the B was always there.
 
You could ask how she convinced the butcher
his scale was wrong, how she'd roll her cart away
 
with three-eighths of a pound of corned beef, paying
for only a quarter – fat trimmed, the way dad liked,
 
but she'd skim that question like she did all surfaces,
even air. Now she's given her own memory the slip.
 
Doctors say there's no reaching her.
 

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We do not accept unsolicited submissions. American Life in Poetry is made possible by The Poetry Foundation (www.poetryfoundation.org), publisher of Poetry magazine. It is also supported by the Department of English at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. Poem copyright ©2017 by Michael Mark, "Estelle," from Alaska Quarterly Review, (Vol. 34, No. 1 & 2, 2017). Poem reprinted by permission of Michael Mark and the publisher. Introduction copyright © 2024 by The Poetry Foundation.