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Column 896

Watching My Mother

05.23.2022

There is a stretch of child­hood that can be filled with such vivid images, yet it is often hard to deter­mine whether what is being recalled is mem­o­ry of our expe­ri­ence, or a mem­o­ry of what we have been told. Jes­si­ca Abughat­tas’ poem, Watch­ing My Moth­er”, ends with such opti­mism and con­fi­dence, even though the details of what she remem­bers are a styl­ized and beau­ti­ful ver­sion of dis­qui­et. In this ele­gant poem, she enacts the strange mag­ic of how we often orga­nize mem­o­ry in a man­ner that allows us to survive. 

Watching My Mother

Beside the Ford Thunderbird,
a suitcase splayed open.
She collects her clothes
from the driveway.
The yellow jumper collapses
into a million threads of saffron.
She keeps dropping them.
They wither and dissolve,
petal by petal
into pavement.
Her hands are rivers.
Her eyes, mascara bats.
Her hair is crying.
I am five and perfect.

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We do not accept unsolicited submissions. American Life in Poetry is made possible by The Poetry Foundation (www.poetryfoundation.org), publisher of Poetry magazine. It is also supported by the Department of English at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. Poem copyright ©2020 by Jessica Abughattas, “Watching My Mother” from Strip (University of Arkansas Press, 2020.) Poem reprinted by permission of the author and the publisher. Introduction copyright © 2024 by The Poetry Foundation.